Pappy I decided it is time to go now. I will always have you in my heart no matter where I go and I know you will be there by my side every step.I have nothing and no one now and I don't know if I ever will. But I have you, mom and the Lord. Help me find my place in the world pappy n mama. I love you and I miss you endlessly.
I have been thinking of you as I always do, It's hard to Imagine that a little over Four years ago you and I were really fighting a hard battle, one that I will always think of as the most important battle we ever weathered together, at times I wonder how we got through it all, But I know that it was God that carried you, and I know that you prayed daily that God would give me the strength to be encouraged and never let anything get me down, and I thank you so much for believing in me to get the job done. I know from heaven you are keeping a watchful eye on me, I feel blessed in knowing you are still there in some way, doing what a loving Father would do for his children.
I can look back at everything, now that some time has passed us by, and I know that it was a true blessing to be able to do what I had to do to make things better for you, I know you loved and appreciated everything that was done to your advantage, but time doesn't make the loss of you any better. I carry in my heart the pain of missing you each and everyday and I will for the rest of my life.
I just want the world to know what a special Father you were and are. I can't thank God enough for blessing me and the rest of your children to have you for a Dad, you truly were and are one of a kind.
I love and miss you much more than I can put into words. May you forever live in the everloving arms of Jesus, you are truly missed.
Dear Pappy / Paula Jones (Daughter) Daddy it has been a long time since I have been able to really take the time to write you on here, I missed Thanksgiving, missed Christmas and New Years and I missed mom's birthday but I did not forget her on that day, I simply was not able to get on here to write, but I am here now and tomorrow would have been your 86th Birthday and I had to be able to get it done this time. I know that you can see me down here daddy and I know if you were here you would have literally raised that cain of yours in the air and swatted that man I was with over and over but I also know that last night, when I left him, and I was in a room in a safer place and trying to go to sleep it was your footsteps I heard walking across the room, they had a distinct sound and I was not at all afraid, I was comforted knowing, or thinking, that you came to tell me I did a good job and that things would be okay. For the last four months I have suffered so much, but you and mom have been with me, in my heart and my soul and beside me, every step of the way and although I cannot turn to you or mama and say thank you for being there for me, I know you hear me from within and I know you have touched my face and told me you loved me and that it was okay and that there is no need for thanks because you were always there for me expecting nothing in return except for gratitude and I know that in the course of my life and yours, while you were here for me I did not always show that gratitude, but oh how I wish I could now so I try to do it through Jesus and just knowing that you both are always in my heart and with me every day to show that now. I miss you daddy, and I love you with every ounce of my being and more than anything in the world I tahnk you for giving me the courage to fight back, the will to stay strong and the mind to think for myself in any situation. That has been my saving Grace pappy..... so Happy Birthday in Heaven Daddy, and may the Lord Bless you forever and ever with all the things that you ever wanted and more because you and mama both deserve that so very, very much. I love you Pappy !
Last night I realized just how very much you and mom did for me with Desiree and I never took the time to say thank you enough or tell you just how very much I appreciated not only what you did for me but what you did for her. I thank you for raising her and for making her the person she is today. I love you daddy, and everytime I talk to Desiree, I know that somehow, I am still talking to you. I love you daddy and words can't describe how much I miss you.
Dad, today has been 3 years since I got to talk to you, It is unforgettable the last conversation we had together, I enjoyed talking to you and it is something I will never forget, only a few short hours later God took you into the heaven's for all of eternity, for you to live forever without any pain or worries, and to forever be rewarded for all of your toils and labor on earth. it is still very surreal that you are no longer here to talk to and to see. I miss your jokes, smile and wisdom and most of all I miss you and love you. I can't thank you enough for when I was a teenager and all of the advise and direction you gave me, I think you know how much it taught me in life to never do, I am so grateful for all you did for me, even when I didn't realize what you were doing, I love you and am thankful God gave me you as a father, there are poeple and there are angels, and you are an angel. I am missing you something terrible today as I always do, today marks the third long year that I have not seen or talked to you, But I know that at God's side you are there watching and letting God know to watch out for me. thank you from the bottom of my heart for being the awesome man and father that you will always be. until God reunites us again one day, you will forever remain deep inside my heart and in my memories. Love Terry p.s. I miss hearing you tell me about living to be 105 and getting shot by a jealous husband as you crawled out of the bathroom window! your sense of humor is so very much missed, you always had the most funny things to say when everyone was down.
Life too hard / Carolyn Horton (daughter)
Daddy,daddy, we need ya'll so life's too hard to carry on . Too hard to face,not worth the pain,the emptiness,the lonliness the days the nights the pains too hard to take anymore.
I still miss you! / Terry Jones (Son) Dad, It is so hard to believe so much time has passed us by and yet it seems like it was yesterday that you left and went home to be with God, I wish somehow that I could see you or talk to you, I can talk to you inside my head, but it is nothing like talking to you in person, if only I could call you and let you know how I am doing, there is no comfort in those around me, nothing can repair my hurt. I still cry for you a lot, I still feel empty and nothing consoles me at all. I know I have not written anything in a long while, But it does not mean that I do not think of you, because I think of you every single day and I always will. I miss you as much, if not more than what I did when you left us all, in fact it is probably more difficult now than what it was when you first went away. I know you are watching over me to help me get through this life, and one day we will see each other again. I love you and miss you so very much, I can't explain just how much, you will always be deep in my heart and my memories. I love you always and forever. Love Terry Close
What you said / Paula Jones (Daughter) Looking back at the last years with you what I hear the most in my mind is you saying how much you loved me. I promise you I will leave this place if I have to walk out. I promise dad. I just don't know how to hang on anymore here. I think about so many things dad, so many things no one knows. I push them all away because I found that love only hurts. But no love hurts like the absence of it. I want to say so many things daddy, but my heart keeps my thoughts inside. I love you daddy. I miss you so very, very much.
Dad, thank you for fathering 7 children and raising your adopted grand daughter as your own, thank you for staying with mom for 55 years and loving her unconditionally and never failing to to be the man who you always were in this life, your first priorty was your wife and your children, you loved us all without prejiduce and did the very best you could, you were the hardest working man I ever knew and I thank you for everytime that you taught me something I would need to know later in life, and when I didn't even realize that you were doing that for me, it has been very useful in my life when I needed it the most. I know from Heaven you watch over me and the rest of your children and grandchildren as well as your great grandchildren and so on. you and mom were the best parents that a child could be blessed with and I will always be thankful for that until God call's me home. I love you and I miss you always and think of you daily, you live on through all of the seeds you planted with God's grace and blessing's, God blessed you too for 55 years with the woman you loved from the first time you saw her, not many men could match your faithfullness to his partner like you always did, It's so nice to be able to remember just how protective and lovong you were with your wife and your kids, even until the time God called you home you remained true to yourself, Mom and your kids without fail. I miss you very much and am thankful you will always be my father. thank you for everything. Terry
It's almost three years since you left to be with Jesus. Mom left to be with you almost two years ago. She couldn't stay without you... Hard to believe that the time has passed so quickly by, but each and everyday still passes with an emptiness and a loneliness that no one can understand or fill. I have so many memories of our lives together and I think about how I never thought it would end but it did end and it left me so very, very alone. Life will never be the same and life doesn't seem much worth living without you and mom. My heart hurts so much daddy. So very much. I miss talking to you, I miss how you always made me laugh when I felt so bad. If I cried you could still make me laugh.... I can still see you out in the garden, I can still see you in the fields, watching football on T.V., and I can still see you standing beside me when I was in a mess, no matter if I was right or wrong. You were always there. I can still see you sitting in your chair deep in thoughts that I will never, ever know what was on your mind that I wish I had taken the time to ask more often than I did. I can still see you in my memory and my memory is all that I have. Thank you daddy for 40 wonderful years of teaching me how to work hard, how to be strong. How to deal with everything from car trouble to broken hearts. You used to always say, " whatever you do Paula, don't let anybody mess with the carberator on your car if you break down." If it were matters of the heart and someone was hurting me or doing me wrong you would always tell me what I should do and you were always right. Just like Mom. Thank you daddy for all the years you invested into loving me, raising me, providing for me, being my rock when the earth beneath me was quicksand. That's how I feel now without you, but there are no rocks to hold onto now. Thank you for loving me daddy, for 40 years of a life with you that no will ever have the gift or privelage of experiencing like I got to do. The ache in my heart for you never goes away and I only hope that one day I will be able to accept that you are gone.
2 and a half years / Terry Jones (Son)
Dad, Well it has been two and half years since you left this world and I Still feel the pain that I felt when you went home, sometimes I wonder if things will go back to what would be somewhat normal in my life, but I know that it won't ever really be the same without you to share the rest of my life with, I have had to accept the unacceptable and learn to deal with it, which is really hard to do. I turned to everything to mask my feelings of emptiness and when I look at everything I have done to mask my feelings and hide them, nothing helps the pain and nothing fills the void, I can be in a room full of laughter and think of you and feel like crying, which inside I do, and sometimes cry out loud and nobody knows but me. I know deep in my heart that you hear me and soothe that pain and emptiness. when you left to go with Jesus it was and still is the hardest tragedy that I will ever have to face in my life and I know that, so I guess I need to try to be strong like you taught me to be, I will never forget the talk we had before you departed this life, the laughter and yet the seriousness, I knew in the tone of your voice that something wasn't right. I know that you knew and trusted me to to oversee things because I am a strong man just like my dear Dad, I learned all of that from the best, you taught me many things that I am forever grateful for. sometimes I look up into the sky and talk to you and hope that you hear me, sometimes I even think I see your face in the clouds and think of all the things that you used to do and say to all of us as children and even into our adult lives, the moments and all the years we had, I am blessed by God to have had you for 35 years, so truly blessed, and I Thank God for you so much, only God knows how much. I am now 38 years old and the 2 and a half years has been so hard without you in it. I love you and I miss you and nothing can surpass that or make it better. I am confident in knowing that your resting in Jesus' loving arms and rejoicing in Heaven for eternity. Dad, I know that you are living in my heart, but I am happy in knowing that where you are everyday is like 1000 days on earth, no darkness, no night, just love and eternal life with God above, I thank God for you everyday. watch over us and tell God to bring all your kids closer together so that we can all celebrate the day when when we see you once again, I love you always and forever. love always Terry
Time Goes By Slowly / Terry Jones (Son) Dad, Everyday is just as lonesome as the day before since you have went home with the Lord, and I sure miss you, more and more everyday. I know that if you were here that you would tell me everything will be alright, and I would find some comfort in that. I know that you have only left in a physical way, and your still right by my side, and I am thankful for that, I love you and miss you so very much that words cannot even describe the pain I feel. I see you in my dreams and they seem so real, like nothing is any different, when I wake up the pain sinks in and I know that your at home and are safe in the ever loving arms of Jesus. I am thankful in knowing that, But still I miss you and time goes by slowly without you. thank you Dad for being the angel that watches over me everyday. I love you forever. TerryClose
Tomorrow will be two years... / Paula Jones (Daughter) Well pappy tomorrow will be two years since that rainy day in April when you left. I still see you sitting in that chair the way you were as though it were yesterday. I still remember mama crying out for you and I still feel this awful empty place inside of me without you both that I don't know will ever go away. I stopped caring about everything when you left, stopped cleaning my house, stopped caring about everything and everyone it seems. I never meant to. I feel so detached from everything and evrybody, I feel like I don't belong anywhere, like I don't know who anyone is especially myself. I look into the mirror and most of the time I don't recognize that person staring back but in my heart I know I am still your daughter daddy and I always will be. I try to get close to everyone but no matter how hard I try the fear of losing them all keeps me at a distance. I don't know if I can do that again dad. I'm lost inside of my feelings and sometimes I wonder if even God knows who I am anymore. Songs come on the radio I know you would have loved and I listen to them with an image of you in my mind sitting under the headphones listening to them. I miss everything about you. I miss the walks we took with Baby and how I would sing that silly little song that made you laugh, and I miss the songs you sang to me. Cowboy Jack still rings in my ears and sometimes I can almost hear your voice singing it to me. I feel like I have died inside, like the world ended when you and mom left and in so many ways, it has. Nobody knows how to talk to me, how to get close to me because I wont let them. I feel almost safer if I am just all alone and I wish I knew how to change that in me but I don't. I long to talk to anyone but days go by and weeks and they turn into months and for me the grief is as fresh and alive as though it was the day you died. I have shut myself away from everything and everyone and I don't know how to get out of this hole I have dug for myself. I miss you daddy, I miss mama and I don't know if I can ever, ever be anything more than the mess I have become. I know you are with Jesus now but that doesn't stop me from needing or wanting you here with me. I never stopped needing you and now that you are gone I realize just how alone and lonely you and mom felt. I live in the shoes you wore daddy. I will be moving to a new place on the anniversary of your death and for the life of me I am not even happy about it. I have no enthusiasm about it at all because all I can think is that you and mama deserved to have all these nice things, not me. I wish you were here daddy, I just wish you were here so I could tell you how much I love you, how much I need you and how very very much I wish it were me who were dead instead of you and mom because if anyone deserves to die, it's me. I would gladly take your places just to give you and mom back to the rest of your kids. I wish that so much daddy. I miss you dad..... and I love you, nothing can ever change that. Nothing.
To My Dearest Family: / Paula Jones (Daughter) There are some things I'd like to say, but first I want to let you know that I arrived okay. I'm writing this from Heaven where I dwell with God above, where there's no more tears or sadness there is just eternal love. Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight, remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night. That day I had to leave you when my life on Earth was through, God picked me up and hugged me and he said, " I welcome you" "It's good to have you back again we missed you while you were gone, as for your dearest family they will be here later on. " " I need you here so badly as part of my big plan, there's so much that we have to do to help our fellow man. " Then God gave me a list of things He wished for me to do, and foremost on that list of mine is to watch and care for you. I will be beside you every day and week and year, and when you're sad I'm standing there to wipe away the tear. And when you lie in bed at night the days chores put to flight, God and I are closest to you in the middle of the night. When you think of my life on Earth and all those loving years, because you're only human they are bound to bring you tears. But do not be afraid to cry it does relieve the pain, remember there would be no flowers unless there was some rain. I wish that I could tell you of all that God has planned, but if I were to tell you you wouldn't understand. But one thing is for certain though my life on Earth is o're I am closer to you now than I ever was before. And to my very many friends trust God knows what is best, I'm still not far away from you I am just beyond the crest. There are rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb, but together we can do it taking one day at a time. It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too, that as you give unto the World so the World will give to you. If you can help somebody who's in sorrow or in pain, then you can say to God at night my day was not in vain. And now I am contented that my life it was worthwhile, knowing as I passed along the way I made others smile. So if you meet somebody who is down and feeling low, just lend a hand to pick him up as on your way you go, When you are walking down the street and you've got me on your mind, I'm dancing in your footsteps only half a step behind. When you feel the gentle breeze or the wind upon your face, that's me giving you a great big hug or just a soft embrace. When it's time for you to go from that body to be free, remember you're not going you are coming here to me. I will always love you from that land way up above, We'll be in touch again soon P.S. God sends His love.
Author Unknown In Loving Memory of our Dad : James Monroe Jones We love you daddy and there is never a day in our lives that passes that we don't think of you, remember you, cry for you and miss you. And until the day we meet again may God hold you softly in the comfort of His arms.
And God said on April 3rd, 2004 early of the morn; Enough. Come home and rest your lonely, weary head my Son. For you have laboured long and tried for far to long, you see. Peace to your tired and weary soul. Rest well my son, and reap your just reward.
Written by : Carolyn Horton In memory of my father James Monroe Jones May 22nd, 2005
Daddy/ Carolyn Horton (Daughter) It's hard. As a matter of fact, impossible to not envision you that morning on April 3rd, 2004. You awoke knowing you were going somewhere special. You rolled up your oxygen tubing and put it away so neatly. You didn't even start coffee like you always did, faithfully, every morning.... You washed out your spitune so clean. You were surely taking a very special journey and somehow you must have known... and knowing you as well as I did Daddy, you probably bent down and kissed mama lightly on the forehead and walked away praying for the Lord to gaurd and watch over your baby. You tried to change into clean clothes but you did not get to finish. You were gone from me... I love you daddy and I miss you so much. I know you are home with Jesus now.
Happy 84th Birthday / Terry Jones (Son) Dad, today would have been your 84th birthday and we celebrate all those 82 that you were here on this earth, making everyone around you wise to life and strong to get through this life. nothing can nor ever will replace you. I wish so badly that you were here to talk to about things that bother me, but I knwo your safe in the arms of God, I also know that your here with me in Spirit and that you never really left, you just found your glorious Mansion in Heaven with God above, the one that you earned and deserved. I remember all the things you used to do, if it was making us laugh it was being serious about how to deal with things that arise in our everday lives, it seemed as if nothing could ever bring you down because you were so strong, those traits are still alive and kicking in your children who love and miss you so very much. I love you Dad, TerryClose
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